i must have the worst luck in the world when it comes to men. ha...and that's giving their species credit considering most of them are just a bunch of boys still. maybe it's the fact that i have standards and morals...but really, that shouldn't hold me back from the good ones, right? i've "been there, done that" when it comes to the creeps. not saying that i would take back any of my past relationships [i'm so very thankful for having been engaged but came to my senses and got out before it was too late] but i'm just done with flaky, ridiculous guys.
i haven't really been into the dating scene...not haven't "really" i haven't at all [lol] so when i met a guy randomly on the midnight owl [far too intoxicated to be passing out my number, btw] i thought it wouldn't hurt to pass on the digits and see where it went from there. i quickly lost interest amidst my insane work schedule..plus it didn't help that he kept pursuing me. look dude, i'm busy...i'm not gonna be on my phone 24-7 with you and it really is hard to nail down a date in which we can actually hang. after blowing off this guy for another week he got a hold of me and i reluctantly accepted his offer to go get sushi [after he wanted to take me out to get a drink and i declined the invitation].
he says he's gonna pick me up at 8..great, a guy who actually drives...okay, maybe this can work out. he shows up and tells me he doesn't know where we're gonna go so maybe he should come in and we could figure it out. ummm, no. sorry, you can't come up. a of all: i don't have a common room in my house for us to mingle in and b of all: you will not be seeing the inside of my bedroom until i even know who you are. i suggest a spot down the road, we walk to the car...he opens my door for me and then i find out he has borrowed a car from a friend. now, i'm not a person to really pass judgement and after-all we do live in san francisco [highly known for public transportation] BUT i believe having a vehicle says a lot and if you don't have one it's a bit of a red flag. i am not interested in seeing someone whom i always have to drive to go see or someone who i am constantly having to chauffeur around. i'm not looking to be someone's mother; i'm looking for a lover and a friend. dare i say a best friend?!
a longish story short, the date was not good. we ended up going to a sushi spot down the road from my house..a tiny hole-in-the-wall place that is inexpensive and has bomb-ass food. key-word really: tiny. if you're in a small spot. have some volume control dude. i don't wanna be the center of attention, ever...especially when i'm out with someone i don't even know. he was loud and obnoxious, no respect for anyone else in the join....and i have these people looking at me like i should put him back on his leash. oh brother!! lol. and then in the end he tried to kiss me which i had nooo problem denying him of. i'm not interested for one and for two i'm super old-fashioned. i don't kiss on the first date. i'm, believe it or not, very, very, very shy when it comes to the "sexual" aspect of a relationship. my body is my temple and if you're realllllllllly lucky you will get to see the goods....and not even "see the goods", you may get a kiss on third date...possibly the second if i'm genuinely interested in you. i'm the kind of girl that likes to be monogamous. i won't be intimate with a person until i'm fully comfortable and somewhat "together". the problem with today's society is the fact that a lot of girls are running around acting like little scally wags...which gives the good girls a bad name..causing these immature boys to automatically assume we're that kind of girl. nope, believe it or not there are still good girls out there.
the man of my dreams on paper would look something very similar to this:
-respectful
-kind
-understanding
-patient
-intelligent [college educated would be a plus but i know school isn't for everyone]
-outgoing [just not so outgoing that i'm constantly wondering who he's chattin' up noooww]
-spontaneous [i wanna just pick up and GO sometimes]
-charming
-funny
-sweet
-gentlemanly
-family man
-"rough neck" [fellas, you gotta be able to take my fishing]
-someone who knows what they want in life but are also willing to just "ride it out"
-isn't afraid to be himself in new situations, especially around my big ol' fam
-athletic
-witty
-i wanna find a man that i can feel the tremendous amount of love he feels for me by just looking into his eyes
woe is me, woe is me, woe is meeeeeee. patience is a virtue and sooner or later i will find my prince charming. until then this is a shout-out to all the independent, sweet, loving, single ladies out there who are waiting for him to come and sweep you off your feet. be patient and never forget that you are good and pure no matter what your past men have done/said.
